Iinherited my mother’s Swedish genes, not my dad's subcontinent features, hisdark brown eyes, his thick black hair. In early 2016, I travelled to India toexplore my connection with the subcontinent, a connection from which I alwaysfelt removed. In India, I found a way to my paternal heritage—a path that tookme through pattern, colour and nature.
Assoon as I arrived in India, I was drawn to India's banyan tree; it spoke to mycultural confusion. Between the massive roots and the falling vines, a darkinner space is created that is eerie but also inviting. I began to think aboutthe banyan as a kind of family tree. I felt like I could get lost within theroots, and so I did.
WhenI returned to the United States, I made a number of room-sized installationsfrom wood, paint, clay and canvas. Using this set, my exploration resulted inthe photo series, Through the Roots; Out to the Clearing. Every image is anaspect of the large-scale space I created; together these images tell thejourney of my quest for identity. The environment is chaotic and multi-layered.This world I made reminded me of the subcontinent, filled with never-ending patternsand colours, where I am in it, yet I am not. I am on the journey to understandmy relationship with the subcontinent. For me, the clearing isn't always soreal, yet somehow in this world I built myself, I belong.